Explain Yourself

I'm stuck where resolve initially collapsed
Too many empty hours have since lapsed

I don't know what else I should do
I can't seem to get through to you
I'm still where I initially fell
and it's hard for me to tell
What's going through your mind
Every time you draw a damn line

Patience might very well be a virtue
It's something I've tried to achieve
But since your heart's got a curfew
How can I be expected to believe
in the words that you will weave

Confessing you want me
Then backing away to flee

I guess it's a blessing you can't see
The tears, the confusion, the misery
God, I just need a reason to believe

I don't really know where else to go
as love's absence continues to show
I'm stuck where I initially collapsed
Too many lonely hours have lapsed

What's crammed inside that uncomfortably crowded space,
when you sense panic trapping you in a dangerous place?

Compassion is such a crucial thing
It's the master I was born to serve
But whenever a heart beats bitterly
How can I be expected to conserve
The words that hopeful mouths have spoken
Only to be refuted when the demon's awoken

You claim that you want what I want
Just to relinquish control to the haunt

I guess it's a blessing that you'll probably never see
The tears, the confusion, the fear that's living in me
God, I just need to return to breathing somewhat normally
I hope one day that we'll feel safe within a shared intimacy

I just don't know what to do
I haven't yet gotten through
I don't know how to reconcile the past
whenever the mad world spins too fast

I'm still frozen where spirits fell
and it's so difficult for me to tell
What's crowding inside that troubled mind
Every time you decide you have to rewind

What's creeping within the pitch black dark,
whenever you let the fear control the spark?

I guess it's a blessing that you'll probably never see
the tears, the confusion, the terror living inside me
It's truly a blessing that you can't taste
the tears, uncertainty, this utter waste

God, I need a comfortable release
I just really need...
I just really want you to love me