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The thought didn't cross my mind
I was too self-absorbed to realize
The climate control has ceased to be
allowing the warmth to leech from me
I can still hear your voice breaking over the phone
begging me to come visit so you wouldn’t be alone
I made up some lame excuse in order to delay
little did I know that it would be your final day
A belated apology only rings out the hollowest of sound
when it's dropped onto a coffin descending into ground
A memorial that shouldn’t have been neccessary, but no!
Self-preservation was more important than loyalty’s show
I really wish that I had paid closer attention
I would've, I should've had the presence of
mind to glean, to deem it neccessary to know
But futile wishes are too many, a multitude of woe
because I failed to listen and truly respect the tone
Wrapped up in the storm ever present in this mind
focused on an internal problem and a chronic whine
Premature goodbyes are tough, so rough to make
because guilt sharpens them into wicked shapes
And the keen edges of the shards ruthlessly cut
serving as reminders of the door I slammed shut
This wall of shame is wallpapered with your beautiful face
Pictures that were taken at a happier time, in a better place
Before you were found with that heartbreaking note by your body
The OD swallow took your pain away, but our tears are still falling
Regrets are bitter pills born of foolish thought
all the what-ifs nourish the stinging onslaught
As I cringe from the enormity of what transpired
it still has power enough to corrode and miswire
Any semblance of rationale and the hope to fix
the communication breakdown, I was remiss
But saying so doesn’t do a damn bit of good
Because you’re gone and all that's left is:
The regret of disloyalty
The lingering disbelief
The futility of apology
A permanence of grief
The silence of your stilled heartbeat
I was too self-absorbed to realize
The climate control has ceased to be
allowing the warmth to leech from me
I can still hear your voice breaking over the phone
begging me to come visit so you wouldn’t be alone
I made up some lame excuse in order to delay
little did I know that it would be your final day
A belated apology only rings out the hollowest of sound
when it's dropped onto a coffin descending into ground
A memorial that shouldn’t have been neccessary, but no!
Self-preservation was more important than loyalty’s show
I really wish that I had paid closer attention
I would've, I should've had the presence of
mind to glean, to deem it neccessary to know
But futile wishes are too many, a multitude of woe
because I failed to listen and truly respect the tone
Wrapped up in the storm ever present in this mind
focused on an internal problem and a chronic whine
Premature goodbyes are tough, so rough to make
because guilt sharpens them into wicked shapes
And the keen edges of the shards ruthlessly cut
serving as reminders of the door I slammed shut
This wall of shame is wallpapered with your beautiful face
Pictures that were taken at a happier time, in a better place
Before you were found with that heartbreaking note by your body
The OD swallow took your pain away, but our tears are still falling
Regrets are bitter pills born of foolish thought
all the what-ifs nourish the stinging onslaught
As I cringe from the enormity of what transpired
it still has power enough to corrode and miswire
Any semblance of rationale and the hope to fix
the communication breakdown, I was remiss
But saying so doesn’t do a damn bit of good
Because you’re gone and all that's left is:
The regret of disloyalty
The lingering disbelief
The futility of apology
A permanence of grief
The silence of your stilled heartbeat
Literature
differently (v. 2)
i.
if I had known I would die tonight,
I think I would've kissed her.
I think I would've told her to stay with me under
the umbrella for just a moment longer
instead of letting her walk into her home
with a flash of a smile back to me
and a "get home safe."
I think I would've pressed that button on the handle
letting the umbrella collapse above us,
fall to the pavement,
let the torrential rain soak us,
and I know I would've kissed her
before she had the chance
to say something.
I know I would've let the rain just pour down on us while
we kissed there,
until she pulled away and laughed –
god, I loved her laugh –
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Literature
Straight Ahead
In keeping with the adage that says,
life is a road,
being in love is a little like watching someone walk away
and naively,
innately,
trusting that they will return.
Being loved,
and loving someone back,
is doing the hard thing
and never,
ever,
turning around.
Because being in love
means,
shouldering the burden of knowing
that the road ahead
is so very dangerous,
and not being cruel enough,
to let the other know.
Literature
Please read this.
Hell, Hell
Dear, you know
I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THIS WORLD.
I am a beast
of many names
my rotting mind
my long mane
darling, all I
could ever wish
for
Is his love.
BUT.
HE'S NOT REAL.
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