Hardship

I’d rather run away to a different place and mindset in time
Before the experience that has stolen my peace of mind
But fear can be so acute I want to crawl out of my own skin
I just want to escape the bleak state that I’ve been in since

Hardship is supposed to build character and toughen the spine
But the only things I feel are cold, alone, and completely petrified
How I live now illustrates just much my perception has changed
My nerves are so taut sometimes that I feel completely deranged

Something has broken apart inside and I’ll never be able to fix it
Every day is a struggle to survive as I tell myself not to risk it
Repition of the derision keeps self-esteem down really damn low
and seeds of worry are fertilized by dread and continue to grow