Only You

Color your mind with my earnest
words and steely determination.
Then darken your soy coffee with
your own doubt and its hesitation.

As soon as worry sucks the wind
out of my sails, the hope I have
each day dissolves in my mouth,
or falls in a void with no way out.

It tends to get trapped in there.
It doesn't get either of us anywhere.
But no matter what makes this the hardest way,
"I give up" is not what my heart wants to say.

And it hasn't turned out to be
the wisest part of my anatomy,
But it's all I have to offer.
My feelings never changed.

After all the time that has lapsed,
and all that's been said and done,
It's just you, you're the only one

My mind recalls when I laugh.
My tears recall when I'm sad.
My mouth recalls when I smile.
My arms held, if only for a short while.

I know you're terrified of a close connection.
I'm doing my best to respect your limitations.
Sometimes hurt forgets, subverts understanding.
You're not the only one who feels sad and lonely.

As soon as the ghost sucks wind
out of my sails, the love I want to
express gets thwarted by sick doubt;
it falls into the void with no way out.

It gets stuck in the dark there.
It gets me absolutely nowhere.
But no matter what makes this the frustrating way,
"I give up" is not what stubbornness wants to say.

My heart hasn't turned out to be
the wisest part of my anatomy.
But it's all I have to offer.
My feelings never changed.

After the nerves that've been undone,
What we've said and what we've done,
It's just you, you're still the only one

My humor wants to share when I laugh.
My tears want to turn to when I'm sad.
My lips want to kiss when I feel like this.
My arms want to hold when I start to fall apart.
My fear wants to sprint to when my mind is dark.

My heart hasn't exactly turned out to be,
the wisest part of my screwed up anatomy.
But it's what I'm willing to provide.
If you want me, I'll stay by your side.